Recent GPOYs
Loving the nice weather :]
As we can tell… I am a camera whore, and I always pose the same. DEALWIDDDITTT.
Did you know I was lonely?
Was I a fool to be fooling myself?
Was it your thrill when you made me believe all your lies?
I believed you cared for me,
I believed you had nothing to hide
There was something about you that woke up my passion inside
Another night when you said we would be on
Another night with your touch on my mind
Another night with your body to lean on
Too many nights wondering how to get it right
So you think I decieved you
Did you assume I was playing with your mind?
But would I waste my time if I didnt care?
Good things don’t come too easy
I’ve been heart broken tomany times
You tried to hard to impress me,
You should’ve figured out what it takes to intice me
Another night when you said we would be on
Another night with your touch on my mind
Another night with your body to lean on
Too many nights wondering how to get it right
Too many nights.
I’m hurting. I’m sad. I’m lost & confused. I’m destructive & reckless.
There’s a billion things that I want to say that all contradict each other.
But I miss you, like no fucking other.
I’m an idiot that should have listened to what everyone was telling me for months.
…
that was quite possibly the messiest break up I’ve ever had.
We’re just friends who decided to fuck and call it “love”. Real talk.
I remember when you used to act like I was your world…
Now that things have gotten difficult you’re constantly resorting to blaming all of the bad things in your life on me. It’s not fair. When will you grow up and learn to live with your actions? Do what you want - but be ready to deal with the consequences… whatever they may be.
I love you… but I love me more. I can’t let you continue to walk all over me when I’ve been the ONE person there for you throughout all the bullshit the past 6 months. Maintaining my optimism and bubbly personality is difficult when you’re such a downer. All of my energy is used to make sure you’re happy. All of it.
Perhaps one day you’ll wake up & have an epiphany. Maybe you’ll figure out what you want. But the way you’ve been acting recently is showing me that there is no future for you and I.
Step your game up .. or…
On to the next.
You liking my post has been the only communication between you and I for a while. I miss you. You’d put up with most of my shit n still be there for me. It sucks things turned out the way they did…
guh…
I feel so upset and alone. I feel like I’m living a secret life which I can’t tell anyone about. I don’t know what to do.
I should probably just go to sleep n forget about all this shit..
:(
